Monday, November 13, 2006
Well, it had been quite long since i last blog.. haven been in the best of mood for the past few weeks or even months.. I dun think anyone know how i feel, not even my best bro yifeng and melvin... If u ppl noticed, i had been keeping myself away recently, haven been going out, had been offering to do a lot a lot of duty... haha... jus to keep myself occupied and not much time to think abt anything.. yet dumb in the sense i felt damn sianz when i am doing some of the duty.. haha...
The past few weeks and months haven been easy for mi.. i had to do a lot of self control and also thankz to my frens who were ard for mi, i manage to drift in and out of a mini(if u call it a mini 1) depression.. haha.. actually i dun really feel okie already, but i ha sort of tot it out and back to my usual mentality which is, rather make the ppl ard mi happy den sad.. hee..
Work had been hell.. really.. i alway have the highest respect for warrant officer.. much much more den commissioned officer. yet i am so farking disappointed with my current warrant officer.. he really make our workplace a living hell.. a few of us really have to control ourself to prevent us from getting into troubles... i especially feel tat my unit is very unfair to sergent from my HQ company.. we dun get the respect, the recongination and the dignity we at the very least deserved... however i shall not say much, shall try to endure as much as i could.. but i am scared, scared tat i cant take it soon.. (if only there is someone for mi to share all my problem with...)
Some of u ppl might noticed tat i also chatted less on msn.. i dun know y, sometimes i jus feel so so sianz tat i dun even know wat to chat abt.. haha.. but yeah , i pick myself up slowly, pieces by pieces.. so tat ppl ard mi will not miss my jokes, entertainment and cheerful personaility...
I am quite stucked at wat to write abt the past few month and happening le.. so maybe i shall jus write abt sat nite.. haha
Okie, so i doesnt feel like going out for so long and so many time... So on sat , claris asked if i wanted to go out and walk walk, shop shop, eat eat... i was thinking.. well.. see who is going.. so there i tot mel, yf, her, rui and mi would be there la until it started raining... and rui say dun feel like going and all these.. so i tot the trip is gone liao.. but den i decide to go ask rui wanna go a not, rain like smaller le.. and so it was decided and peiling was coming too.. so we decided to meet 545pm at orchard mrt.. I KNEW tat they sure late so i leave my hse late also.. wah so zun tat i reach the mrt station claris jus come out of the control station lo.. such superb reading of the time.. hahaha!!
And so we started shopping ard.. omg these girls! they walk into topshop and tat stupid rui, know i wasnt paying much attention to where we walking and i was jus following ard, she walk straight to the lingerie section... kaoz.. i jus walk out of topshop and shop ard on my own man.. hahaha.... after they finish with their shopping ard, we met up again and we went to NYDC for our dinner... and once again, tat rui and mi (& PL) displayed our chemistry or rather she copied mi as we ordered the same food and drinks! lolz.. so we were chatting, having fun eating out dinner and at the same time, they were gossiping abt SARAH! lolz.. girls will alway be girls..
We had our dinner till 8 plus when yifeng finally arrived.. ass.. so late... we den proceed to MINDS cafe.. i had nver been to there and the game there was quite dumb la.. lolz.. and yes rui, good for u, kept ur PROMISE of flattening my hair.. hahaha... but the joke of the day was peiling.. reaction so big till the "hammer" flew all the way to behind the counter.. hahah!!!
Well, after the games, we dun feel like going home yet so ended up going to balcony bar to have a drink and chat.. SOMEONE underage ahz, or else we can go aircon place, in the end have to sit downstair at the no aircon place.. hoh CLARIS? lolz...
We ordered some finger food and beers which were shared between mi(2), yf(2), rui(1 1/4), claris(3/4) and peiling (0)... lolz! WELL, i have to say this was my BEST chatting session so far within the last few month.. peiling was a bit ZI BI, sat alone at the swing till nearly got picked up by an ang mo! lolz... luckily yf went over to rescuse her.. HERO RESCUSING A DAMSEL IN DISTRESS! lolz... ehem ehem ehem... lolz
Basically i have to say claris, rui and mi talk the most and i guess alcoholic drinks does make u relax and talk more freely and openly.. i was seriously amazed by some of the things we tok abt and the fact tat we converse like adults and was open, truthful and respectful to each other while talking make it even more meaningful.. i was surprised tat some of us nver flinched when some of the more awkward topic was chatted abt.. I think after this talk, the 3 of us had reach a new lvl of understanding, and our frenship has gone up one lvl too.. i feel that is was alway 3 of us who make the most of all these talks, no matter at these type of chill out session, chalet staying up or at rui's hse.. We even talk of 1st impression! and how we try to conceal our true personaility hoh rui? lolz..
Even though we 3 may all be irritated by the same person in one way or another, we shall keep it our DIRTY LITTLE SECRET ya! lolz.. As wat claris had said, we should have more of this outing and have more of these type of talks.. i totally agree!! There is some things tat i work super super super hard to get and i have to make sure i dont do anything dumb to throw it away, rite claris? hmmm.. and ya, online at the same time after we reach home which is ard 4 plus! lolz..
hmm... think i shall end here with this chinese sentence which i sort of chance upon.. super meaningful yet a huge trace of sadness in it...
那一瞬间,我终于发现,那曾深爱过的人,早在告别的那天,巳消失在这个世界上....
In english, it means, "At the moment when we said goodbye, I realised the person which I had so deeply loved, no longer existed in this world....."
super meaningful aint it?
Alexelion MisSeD yOu @ 10:56 PM
